i've not heard of shisha but when my friend described it to me, i was like, wow cool! we can do this in singapore? i was wondering to myself if it is a borderline activity that is kept so low profile that ive not heard of.
then came the highly anticipated shisha.
it looks glorious, with lots of accessories, sparkle, in a green glass and a long suspiciously looking tube. the waiter distributed to each of us a personal filter.
(so that you dont suck on each other's saliva)
the waiter asked if we want the normal tobacco or the premium one.
we ordered one each. the normal tobacco was in strawberry flavour while the premium smoke is mango scent.
pop* pop* pop*.. cautiously taking small puffs becos i dont know how lethal this stuff is. pop* pop* pop* pop* again. more whiff and smells so sweet. emm.. like mango aroma coming out of your breath. the bubbling water pops when you suck the pipe for the smoke.
pop* pop* pop*pop* pop* pop*pop* pop* pop*pop* pop* pop*pop* pop* pop*
pop* pop* pop*pop* pop* pop*pop* pop* pop*pop* pop* pop*pop* pop* pop*
i can tell you, the thing is 3% lethal. a way distant cousin of the normal cigarette. it is all hype and nothing more. so it is just some funny thing people do to idle around. unlike acient china man with the real opium pipe, this form of idlling does NOTHING to you. so next time, people ask if you shishaed? you can say ;"you mean you do?" and laugh. haha. no lah, it was quite a fun experience just that it was all hyped up and nothing to shout about. haha. it is just like bubble tea.
k, today i went to UFM100.3 and WKRZ's office to discuss a project we are doing. i must tell you, the people there are fantastic. they are so humble, knowledgeable (is my spelling correct?), anyway-- they are simply very focused, clear headed and level headed. all charged up with life. i like them. even the anchor DJ held no airs. really do hope that we find our desperately-seeked-sponsor soon. you know, my company dreamt of a programme, went to one stat board to propose our idea, they love it, approved it, endorsed it and we ran it. but we couldnt fly becos no sponsors said yes. yet. so it is pretty stressful for us, calling them, meeting them, talk and be hopeful but have not got one that say:"come, here's $10,000"
for your info, we need ten of them to say that.
so let's just say that we pray a lot.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Monday, March 21, 2005
critical mass
i have finally reached critical mass. ive reached the point where i fret not
(here's talking about my overwhelmed feelings about work every monday)
there is this inner strength that has popped up inside me.
a more balanced sense that i can handle this.
so, yes =) i am glad that i was pushed to do things i didnt have the
confidence to do. initially it felt frightening, pulling the whole show.
but now, im glad to have learnt the ropes here and there.
so now i can do more? haha.
k, work aside.
you know, i am quite a mental person. mentally not very sound.
i am a people person for sure, i love to be with my friends,
my beloved cousins and relatives (though i must say that some of
my aunts are very naggy). but yes, i am quite mental.
you see, after 3 hours at a facial + massage, i would be very happy when i check my mobile phone and see that there are no missed calls. it is idiot and i think i am pathetic to even have an ounce of happiness just becos there is no one looking for me.
you see, i am a very private person. i love to be alone. i love to read alone, practise piano alone, suntan with maximum 2 friends (unless on holiday-- then it depends, could be 5,6,7,8 people it's fine), day dream alone. write in my diary, pack my bag, listen to music, read papers. etc etc all alone. i need alot of down time per se. and for heaven's sake i cannot say,,,, do some "alone thing" knowing that i have to go on another appt, or that someone's waiting for me. so ya, when i am done with 3hrs of facial, i am happy that i was not needed somewhere by someone. you see, i have the big issue with people needing me. i am afraid of ppe needing me becos it is me who never want to need anyone. call it the teochew stubborness. whatever. i am really an independent person and when i do ask for help, i must have been in dire state to have asked. i dont quite get it too. i think i am too rigid a person. recently i learnt a lesson about asking. i was foolish to think that there is no price in asking for a gift. my aunt touched 4D and i asked her to buy me something. she happily bought it for me. few weeks later, she said,"next time you touch 4D, dont forget about me". well i am not ready for this. i dont like conditional favours. and i was the sucker who asked for the deal in the first place. thinking that there is unconditional gifts. you see, the very strange thing about me is that whatever that is in "my model of the world" i.e. whatever that is "norm" for me, i thought that that is the basic understanding for everyone i deem close to me. for instance, if i touch big 4D, i would buy something for someone for free. free of any condition. as long as it is being appreciated and being asked of (as long as there is a value to the act). i wont think of a return. isnt that how things are? i was so embarassed when my aunt asked that i return a favour in future. had i known that that is her expectation, i wouldnt want a grain of sand. foolish me.
recently a friend asked me if she should have sex with a man she is infatuated with. i said:"how can you ask me such a question?" "what do you want me to answer?"
if i say yes, she will say that "oh, then im sending a wrong message that i am a loose woman." if i say no, she will say "oh but i am never see him again"
blah. can i for the record say that dont ask me such freaking questions when what ever answer is NOT RIGHT. i know that if i say here "dont freaking waste my time", you may get me wrong thinking i am snobbish. so let me tell you the background.
my friend, who is 30 not 13 is suddenly head over heels over an ABC. she felt ashamed to have made the first move by opening the conversation. what day and age is it? i said she can jolly well wait for the rabbit to fall from the sky and let the chance go by. in short, with my step-by-step guidance, my friend managed to have "open communication channels" -ie email and sms with the guy she likes. then they guy called her before stepping into his house upon returning to his home town (overseas). he was afraid if he got home, his mom would grab him, leaving him no time to call my friend. and my friend called to ask me if this is good or bad. duh.
i REFUSE to give an answer. if i say oh that is a good sign, he wanna talk to you before his mommy dearest!, my friend would say oh but that doesnt mean he likes me.
so ya i sreamed. no i didnt la. i sighed and said:"isnt that obvious?" and "i cant tell you if he likes you becos i am not him and i cant design your life, your destiny, i can only tell you that you can choose to LIVE the moment, enjoy your infatuation while it lasts becos it doesnt come easy" (knowing my friend who is one who doesnt just get head over heels with any dick).
whatever the case. pls dont call and sigh into the phone EVERYTIME you call me. becos as much as i am aunt agony, i am not enjoying it 24-7. and for goodness' sake pls dont call my name in vain. i absolutely hate that.
had my friend want to increase her chances of becoming friends with that chap, i would gladly brainstorm all ideas with her. being friends 101, she can count on me on that. but she is not active in making things happen for herself. she just wanna sigh. and say what if what if. so pls, i could only listen to the SAME problem three times. the forth session warrants blatant remarks that i warn: may hurt.
=)
(here's talking about my overwhelmed feelings about work every monday)
there is this inner strength that has popped up inside me.
a more balanced sense that i can handle this.
so, yes =) i am glad that i was pushed to do things i didnt have the
confidence to do. initially it felt frightening, pulling the whole show.
but now, im glad to have learnt the ropes here and there.
so now i can do more? haha.
k, work aside.
you know, i am quite a mental person. mentally not very sound.
i am a people person for sure, i love to be with my friends,
my beloved cousins and relatives (though i must say that some of
my aunts are very naggy). but yes, i am quite mental.
you see, after 3 hours at a facial + massage, i would be very happy when i check my mobile phone and see that there are no missed calls. it is idiot and i think i am pathetic to even have an ounce of happiness just becos there is no one looking for me.
you see, i am a very private person. i love to be alone. i love to read alone, practise piano alone, suntan with maximum 2 friends (unless on holiday-- then it depends, could be 5,6,7,8 people it's fine), day dream alone. write in my diary, pack my bag, listen to music, read papers. etc etc all alone. i need alot of down time per se. and for heaven's sake i cannot say,,,, do some "alone thing" knowing that i have to go on another appt, or that someone's waiting for me. so ya, when i am done with 3hrs of facial, i am happy that i was not needed somewhere by someone. you see, i have the big issue with people needing me. i am afraid of ppe needing me becos it is me who never want to need anyone. call it the teochew stubborness. whatever. i am really an independent person and when i do ask for help, i must have been in dire state to have asked. i dont quite get it too. i think i am too rigid a person. recently i learnt a lesson about asking. i was foolish to think that there is no price in asking for a gift. my aunt touched 4D and i asked her to buy me something. she happily bought it for me. few weeks later, she said,"next time you touch 4D, dont forget about me". well i am not ready for this. i dont like conditional favours. and i was the sucker who asked for the deal in the first place. thinking that there is unconditional gifts. you see, the very strange thing about me is that whatever that is in "my model of the world" i.e. whatever that is "norm" for me, i thought that that is the basic understanding for everyone i deem close to me. for instance, if i touch big 4D, i would buy something for someone for free. free of any condition. as long as it is being appreciated and being asked of (as long as there is a value to the act). i wont think of a return. isnt that how things are? i was so embarassed when my aunt asked that i return a favour in future. had i known that that is her expectation, i wouldnt want a grain of sand. foolish me.
recently a friend asked me if she should have sex with a man she is infatuated with. i said:"how can you ask me such a question?" "what do you want me to answer?"
if i say yes, she will say that "oh, then im sending a wrong message that i am a loose woman." if i say no, she will say "oh but i am never see him again"
blah. can i for the record say that dont ask me such freaking questions when what ever answer is NOT RIGHT. i know that if i say here "dont freaking waste my time", you may get me wrong thinking i am snobbish. so let me tell you the background.
my friend, who is 30 not 13 is suddenly head over heels over an ABC. she felt ashamed to have made the first move by opening the conversation. what day and age is it? i said she can jolly well wait for the rabbit to fall from the sky and let the chance go by. in short, with my step-by-step guidance, my friend managed to have "open communication channels" -ie email and sms with the guy she likes. then they guy called her before stepping into his house upon returning to his home town (overseas). he was afraid if he got home, his mom would grab him, leaving him no time to call my friend. and my friend called to ask me if this is good or bad. duh.
i REFUSE to give an answer. if i say oh that is a good sign, he wanna talk to you before his mommy dearest!, my friend would say oh but that doesnt mean he likes me.
so ya i sreamed. no i didnt la. i sighed and said:"isnt that obvious?" and "i cant tell you if he likes you becos i am not him and i cant design your life, your destiny, i can only tell you that you can choose to LIVE the moment, enjoy your infatuation while it lasts becos it doesnt come easy" (knowing my friend who is one who doesnt just get head over heels with any dick).
whatever the case. pls dont call and sigh into the phone EVERYTIME you call me. becos as much as i am aunt agony, i am not enjoying it 24-7. and for goodness' sake pls dont call my name in vain. i absolutely hate that.
had my friend want to increase her chances of becoming friends with that chap, i would gladly brainstorm all ideas with her. being friends 101, she can count on me on that. but she is not active in making things happen for herself. she just wanna sigh. and say what if what if. so pls, i could only listen to the SAME problem three times. the forth session warrants blatant remarks that i warn: may hurt.
=)
Monday, March 14, 2005
monday scare
it happened again.
today, while walking to work, i pondered abt getting another job. perhaps just get a 9 to 5 job, i thought.
then i felt that it would be a waste of my life to be mundane.
but i really felt the urge to go find another job. perhaps something more secure. with cpf etc. and to get back my old pay scale.
then i remembered that instant gratification is not wise. and that investment (in a profession) would take toil of some form. plus i crave for learning. i've always liked to be challenged.
then it happened again.
in the evening, my colleague had a meeting with me on one proposal that we're putting up.
it's a small but very nicely furnished taiwanese restaurant that needs A&P -- advertising and promotion. in the midst of anther CEO breakfast forum that we are managing for our client.
and i felt alive again.
i dont like this pattern of mine. monday scare.
what is it that i am afraid of? that at the end of my productive life i realised too late that ive given the weight overly to work and little to family (planning)?
nah. my life is what i create, isn't it?
hence, in the midst of my very busy day, i slot in time for "Desperate Housewives", CSI
and trips to the beach, gathering with friends etc. and when i am ready, a baby or two.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
where have i been?
been very busy. CNY was so much fun but i didnt have the time to even journal anything.
i had been stressed lately (but not since yesterday) as ive gotten over it.
work was the culprit. bidding for a product launch of a PDA with back end support. you cant imagine how much thinking goes into a pitch. of course we want the project, hence from field work to database profiling, to launch mechanics-- are basically a lot of work. and it's not good enough to wow our client. before CNY, we bid for one mega project ,, trying to create the singapore fire festival, but the client said no. too much money involved. but hey, they were the ones who said they've got quarter to a million to spend. so is that hot air or what. small scale seminar went well. that is easy job for me now that ive done a few of that. you know, queuing speakers and all. some speakers are even more nervous than me. my colleague assigned me to do emceeing. gosh, i cant for goodness sake. im SHORT, looks like a midget behind the podium. and i dont sound like a DJ for goodness. my voice is good for hypnosis and not to host an event. so i *siam *siam.. felt bad becos my colleague took up the job at the eleventh hour. she's good. she's good at anything. PR, presentation, hosting, research. anything. i always tell my husband that i PALE in comparison with my 2 colleagues. their wealth of experience is fabulous. that's why i feel pressured. becos i am expected to be just like them. they see no problem in me doing anything. not knowing that i feel utterly insecure. i tell myself that i should rise up to the challenge becos this is one great opportunity for me to double up, buck up, to bring my quotient higher. ya. but feeling lack in capability is not a good feeling. panicky may i add. luckily, they are nice ppe. they dont make me feel any less worthy or be impatient with me. that is what i really appreciate about them. once i got the proposals out, it was relief. well, till the client comes back and say - "you got the job!",, i'll leave the worrying till then. as it is, there are 2 other projects in-hand. F3- Fun, Fit & Fabulous! 2005. our brain child. joint organiser HPB-- health promo board. we are bringing entrepreneurship training into schools, weaving health messages into it. 3 mega event days in 3 different schools. seek sponsorship, brief contractors, source for DJ stint, trainers, st john ambulance, sports council... you're bored i know.
one memorable thing abt CNY is that my cousin is out. from prison.
starting life anew, after being foolish. you know, it is easy to think that you can get away with anything if you've thought of all loopholes and covered them.
we had so much fun playing the silly 24 card game. you know-- you can + - X divide all four cards on the table to arrive at number 24. and another game where we mix any form of sauce- chilli, tomato, soya sauce, pepper, with pepsi, yeo's drinks and 7up whatever. looser gotta drink up. bottoms up no cheating. my cousie's wife is sporting. she drank a super awful concoction. thumbs up! glad she's family. hahaha.
i had been stressed lately (but not since yesterday) as ive gotten over it.
work was the culprit. bidding for a product launch of a PDA with back end support. you cant imagine how much thinking goes into a pitch. of course we want the project, hence from field work to database profiling, to launch mechanics-- are basically a lot of work. and it's not good enough to wow our client. before CNY, we bid for one mega project ,, trying to create the singapore fire festival, but the client said no. too much money involved. but hey, they were the ones who said they've got quarter to a million to spend. so is that hot air or what. small scale seminar went well. that is easy job for me now that ive done a few of that. you know, queuing speakers and all. some speakers are even more nervous than me. my colleague assigned me to do emceeing. gosh, i cant for goodness sake. im SHORT, looks like a midget behind the podium. and i dont sound like a DJ for goodness. my voice is good for hypnosis and not to host an event. so i *siam *siam.. felt bad becos my colleague took up the job at the eleventh hour. she's good. she's good at anything. PR, presentation, hosting, research. anything. i always tell my husband that i PALE in comparison with my 2 colleagues. their wealth of experience is fabulous. that's why i feel pressured. becos i am expected to be just like them. they see no problem in me doing anything. not knowing that i feel utterly insecure. i tell myself that i should rise up to the challenge becos this is one great opportunity for me to double up, buck up, to bring my quotient higher. ya. but feeling lack in capability is not a good feeling. panicky may i add. luckily, they are nice ppe. they dont make me feel any less worthy or be impatient with me. that is what i really appreciate about them. once i got the proposals out, it was relief. well, till the client comes back and say - "you got the job!",, i'll leave the worrying till then. as it is, there are 2 other projects in-hand. F3- Fun, Fit & Fabulous! 2005. our brain child. joint organiser HPB-- health promo board. we are bringing entrepreneurship training into schools, weaving health messages into it. 3 mega event days in 3 different schools. seek sponsorship, brief contractors, source for DJ stint, trainers, st john ambulance, sports council... you're bored i know.
one memorable thing abt CNY is that my cousin is out. from prison.
starting life anew, after being foolish. you know, it is easy to think that you can get away with anything if you've thought of all loopholes and covered them.
we had so much fun playing the silly 24 card game. you know-- you can + - X divide all four cards on the table to arrive at number 24. and another game where we mix any form of sauce- chilli, tomato, soya sauce, pepper, with pepsi, yeo's drinks and 7up whatever. looser gotta drink up. bottoms up no cheating. my cousie's wife is sporting. she drank a super awful concoction. thumbs up! glad she's family. hahaha.
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